Everything that happens is part of a Divine plan. You don't have to understand it or explain it. Its a human tendency to imagine needs and to react with emotion. This has been known to control the souls of human beings. What would your angels say to you?
If you come to know love and it doesn't feel good, then could you not be dwelling on tragic examples? What if love liberates the soul? Some people feel they wage war with their inner selves to resist what matters. Why would you flee from sources of love in your life?
Who inspires you with words? with thoughts and feelings? At each stage of your life, you develop misgivings out of fear. Some of the most thoughtful wisdom is blinded by vanity and pride. Raising your awareness requires training and nurturing an unwavering faith.
Many human beings say they wish to speak with angels. Yet, the same people do not shift their awareness or behavior to listen to what angels are telling them. What you want and what they tell you differ. Angels know how you think. They ask you to be patient.