You are awakening to the intensity of an innate creative force.  The message resonating through your relationships and circumstances is already blowing your mind.  Notice the metaphor that each experience leaves with you.  They are all pointing in a particular direction.  Follow what you feel. The intuitive sense gives you everything you want to know.  Everything you do not love offers a meaningful lesson about what you are not. We are all teachers and students inviting each other to awaken to human dynamics of love.