Dream:
I was at my grandparents' house, on their front lawn (this grandmother is deceased. We did not get along). I asked a friend (also client) I do not know well for $1000 to pay my outstanding work bills. I felt uncomfortable asking her. This friend is regarded as being in a 'cool group' and someone "everyone is meant to impress."
Insight:
Many people have unresolved relationships with money. There is often a tug of war going on inside which echoes scarcity and abundance. This can trigger guilt and shame alongside joy and excitement, a range of emotions.
You may be questioning the nature of certain obligations and commitments you create for yourself and the stress and anxiety it evokes. There is something you feel you can do without yet, what hijacks your attention is deep desire to do more, go further, be seen, belong or feel accepted.
Thoughts of impressing others draw attention to insecurities and issues of self-worth. You truly want to get-along with all sides of yourself, merge fragemented parts of your psyche. Parts of you may seem dead and buried, yet they are not. Feelings are pointers to what is alive within you. When we think we create conflicts or that others do not like us, this is simply pointing to shadows we have not yet accepted/ integrated within us.
If you feel under peer pressure, you may hide repressed anger which itself masks hidden hurt. In truth, its not others that are the issue. Focus instead on which aspects of yourself you are rejecting. They are struggling for attention. Rediscover what it is to be real. No need to pretend to impress people, or to get along with them.
Lawns echo all with growth potential is interconnected, and opportunities are right "in front of us" whether or not we are willing to see this. The front lawn tends to represent what you are willing to put "out there" for public view. This also implies possible fear judgement, criticism and rejection. Reference to embarassment echoes possible hidden fears about putting something new "out there" or showing people who you truly are. Watch what happens as you imagine the worst case scenarios. See what you are truly made of. Be real. Pay the unwritten debt to your soul.
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